Long Time No Blog

I feel like I have abandoned the ole blog. Sorry for the very long hiatus. Just a little update:

We moved into a new house, I have a new job (been there for almost a year), and we are trying to have a baby. The first two speak for themselves, but I am thinking that I might want to talk about the news on the baby front.

In November 2012, Ben and I decided we wanted to try to have a baby. After all, we have been married for 5 years and been together for a total of 15 years. It was time. Four months went by and no positive pregnancy test. I had used ovulation predictor tests and they showed I was ovulating. Still nothing. All of a sudden after having regular cycles, everything changed. I went to my OBGYN and he ran some tests and confirmed that I had low progesterone and didn't ovulate. He started me on a fertility cocktail of Clomid, Premarin, and Progesterone. I took the 1st cocktail and no baby. I am about to start the 2nd round. Even though I took the cocktail at night, I still had every side effect known to man. I even had to apologize for my moodiness and attitude several times. If they only new what I was going through.

Ben and I decided that we would talk about our struggles with trying to conceive. We want everyone to pray for God to bless us with a child of our own. Having issues with trying to conceive is nothing to be embarrassed about, it's just the road we were sent down. We intend to go as far as the road will go. We haven't ruled out adoption, but we want to try for as long as my body will allow for a biological child.

It is devastating to go into the doctor's office and see all of these pregnant ladies. I long for a child so bad. I feel like we are financially stable, are good people, and would provide the loving and nurturing home a child deserves. Don't get me wrong, I am sooooo happy for my friends who announce they are pregnant. I am also jealous because I want what they have. If my friend's complain of nausea, back aches, etc. I can't help but think, I would give anything to be in your shoes. I would gladly be nauseous, have a back ache, get huge. God has a plan for Ben and I. We can't wait to see what He has in store.